I need something or someone to make me feel at ease. I just feel so giddy these days. I always stare blankly into outer space. I don't know why. The days feel like they are passing by slowly, more slowly than anyone would expect. I feel that something is lacking. Like I'm missing something. >< I miss my friends too much. My KADA. My girls. Red Cross. Maksci. How I miss those things. DAMN. I just really need some time out and some partying. All I do nowadays is school. SCHOOL. SCHOOL. I don't even remember the last time I watched a movie and truly enjoyed it.
I want to go back to the good old days. My life is so boring now. I want some excitement. I want to get away. I want to travel. I just want to be freaking FREE. O.o Even my anticipated birthday is not so anticipating anymore. I have a freaking test on that day. The next day AGAIN. The week before that too. DAYUMN! Even my birthday's been taken away from me. I don't know how I can make that day a special one. I really do want a special day. BUT... We don't always get what we want, right?
My happiness comes from the internet nalang these days. Of course, that's TAEMIN. He's the only one providing me comfort and pleasure. When I see his face, I feel a little bit calm. At the least bit. I've totally become lifeless. There's nothing exciting about my life anymore. It's a freakin' boring LIFE!
I just really hope that on the 18th, something very memorable will happen to me. I hope I get my peace of mind soon. I hope my 17th birthday would be a hell lot better than my 16th although i loved my 16th birthday very much.
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